During my time here at the University of Arizona my overall perspective in poetry has been deeply transformed. Along with the vast amount of knowledge in this literary genre, there has also been provided a unique confidence that I needed to feel comfortable calling myself a poet. It is not only recognizing my position as poet, but also using poetry to channel my own language to clearly voice what I think is important. This assurance I have for my writing was not always present and because I have this reassured confidence in poetry, I am now able to see poetry in a brand new light.
You know I feel that in poetry there is this level of honesty with how a poet lays down language. Not everything makes sense but if I stay honest with myself I will always need poetry to feel sincere. And maybe poetry isn’t for everybody else but all I can say is don’t knock it till you try it.
The food idiom of the post is to “use your noodle” which I understand completely and it can have several translations of how it can be used. But it’s really just telling someone to think or to use his or her head. Really it is like telling someone to use their critical thinking skill and almost can imply that people don’t regularly use their brains. It is very cool not only as a poet but as a person with so many opinions to express that sometimes it is the tone and delivery that can make this saying really offensive or just playful.
They say you are what you eat but you are also what you say. But sometimes it is how you say it that can make a ton of difference. It is very close to graduation. And along with that celebration there is also a lot of reflection and reminiscence of where you came from. And it is rewarding to be able to have something to celebrate but you are also able to see the place you started at, almost like calculating every footstep and seeing how even though things have changed so much, nothing will ever change like the way I want it to. I am in charge of change and what that change is or what it is I’m looking for in this next chapter in life is a covenant with my own self.
Slowly realizing that even though I have deadlines and events to attend that are apart of my requirements for my classes; I am and always have the need to be thinking about what I honestly want to do. I mean I have the influence of my education and have met so many inspirational individuals on this trail I took to get here. I got here of course with the help of everyone in my life but it was me that needed to actually follow through and get it completed.
I always go back to this moment from my childhood when I was just a kid, maybe seven or younger. It was my older uncle ”Gin-Gin” my mom’s younger brother who was not getting mad at me but telling me in a loud voice to take on more responsibility. I remember that day clearly too. We were cooking breakfast at my grandma’s house at the time. It was my brother, my uncle, my mom and me living at the house, and the potatoes needed to be peeled and cut.
Everyone was busy doing something else and of course we were just kids waiting to be fed. We didn’t help out during that time, I guess we were just kids. And it was just out of nowhere when my uncle said, “Let Sky do it, he needs to learn.” And that stuck out for me up until now and it always will. Those words and not just the words but the fact that my adult uncle saw that I was ready or he saw something in me. I don’t know what but that moment I have carried with me all the way here, where I am now.
I lost my uncle shortly after that moment and it was one of the clearest I have of him. We all have a trail or road that offers some challenge or information, but in reality sometimes those trips or voyages are ones that you need to go alone. And I think that is why my uncle said what he said about me doing something for the family. He knew I was capable of doing more, capable of peeling those potatoes for us to eat.
I chose this particular video because I remember reading about how when Chris Cornell was getting famous with his band Soundgarden and was experiencing success to some degree although it didn’t necessarily mean that he was happy or satisfied. He had just lost a dear friend of his and the loss of his friend couldn’t be replaced with possessions and money. And I think sometimes life can revolve around money and possessions, but ultimately they could end up being secondary to something way more important like your own happiness.