Players Going To Play…

I feel like we are in a time when we got to prove we have an opinion, no one wants to be wrong. I just think really no one wants to look foolish, we state facts that are helpful to justify our thoughts, but it’s all words to convince the listener to think differently.

I always remember one of my instructors explaining the levels to a conversation, there was of course gossip. If the person being discussed wasn’t at the table to defend themselves then it was gossip. I would say gossip is a very popular level, yet is it an effective way to use your words and energy?

Professional basketball is nuts.

You have players giving you signs of hope, even after seasons of turmoil and injuries, as a player you can still be determined to play, you can still end on a good note. Life knocks you on the floor, bruised and beaten, the real battle is to decide to get back up and take another beating if needed. I think the world is so media driven and we get a lot of opinion-based content. Just because you haven’t had the best of luck, doesn’t mean that you don’t deserve to chase that dream. The road has many exits to quit, and if your not winning that battle within, then you might not ever reach that destination.

I’m seeing the gifted struggle, it’s fun to talk fantasy and reconize talent, yet that doesn’t even matter if that talent is not being fueled by effort. There is a line between day-dreaming and making those wild thoughts come to fruition. Talking is of course the initial start of the process, but that’s all it is, if there no action backing up those ideas. Players come and go every year, but to win a ring requires a team, and it’s interesting to see what actually goes down apposed to what was predictied with well thought out words.

I think it’s a beautiful thing to watch a team gel, to find that groove and be in tune with everyone on and off the court. I’m hoping those teams building that chemistry see the importance of having that bond. There can only be one champion team and everyone else that has fallen short has that option to continue to play. Not winning is just as important as winning, being able to grow from both situations is the ultimate victory.

The race has begun, we’re not talking a sprint, it’s a marathon to the finals. The long haul has teams heated in discussions. I think the ego is what gets challenged most. Being able to admit to being in the wrong or apart of the commotion. Having the confidence to not let ego get in the way of a meaningful bond.


A Cold Open

There are these things going on in the world and I don’t always feel that I have enough information to be making firm decisions or forming a legit stance on something that might not even concern me. I just get this feeling that the t.v. and the internet is programming me to think a specific way. There are times when I feel trained well, rather than doing something meaningful and something that will benefit my well-being, I do what I’m supposed to do.

I might be phrasing things wrongly, I feel that the future is unwritten, and by doing the precise thing, that will ensure that this vision is created. Our individual dreams, those things we can bring into existence with our energy and language.

The difficult thing about thriving in this world is that it requires commitment, you need challenges and barriers to inspire growth and strength.

The powers we give a device or an app, weakens our own ability to utilize that same power for ourselves. Society is so fast paced, and we think all these extra choices will speed up the process.

I’m not the anti-social media guy, I think there are some benefits to partaking in pictures and commentary. Updates about celebrities dating and locals trying to be famous. There is information that is useful, but has that easy access to the knowledge gotten in my way of just living life at full capacity.

Do the shortcuts hinder the experiences?

I know there is a lot going on in my world and there are these ways of living that I just question, and reflect on my own upbringing. Times have drastically changed in some ways, and yet it can still feel like the same struggle. The misunderstood offering something that can be shared with the older generations.

Missed Mac

I woke up early this morning, well I needed to be up early so that I didn’t miss my ride to work. I’ve been having some car trouble, it’s all good, but being up and getting closer to winter, I guess the season gets me in my feelings. I’m not depressed, I’m unable to name my mood. I have nothing to complain about, let me rephrase that, I have no time to complain about the things I must deal with in order for me to be me. Real talk.

I am still hurt about Mac Miller, you know the music you take with you in your travels and experiences are important. Not everyone loves the same thing, and there was a point in my life when I was heartbroken finishing school, ready to graduate and moving into a new house with my family. I’ve made mistakes, I’ve been the one that everyone was concerned about. I look back at those moments and see how crucial that time was, I almost was testing the waters. Living life is expecting the unexpected, Mac had experienced success at a young age, and the dude handled it in his own way. I can’t deny that the music did help me in my journey.

Fast forward to now.

I have a job I love and that helps me run this youth program with one of my best friends. My family is my best support and I am doing my best to be the Uncle for the young ones. I have issues, I have those bad thoughts, yet I also have so much to lose, that I am doing whatever I can to make this trip a great one.

This song was on my playlist during my last semester of college, it resonates this confused feeling for me. I mean you can have all the degrees in the world, however that has nothing to do with the person you will be in the world. I want to be me, and it’s not caring that others may see you differently. I can not control everything, and living life is proving that to yourself, still brave enough to be in tune with the soul.

A great song can do wonders, I walk tall into the next moment…

Karaoke Heart

I need you to be close to the reader rather than the actual writing your reading in the blog. I have been experiencing what the world has to offer and I can spend my time complaining or raving about how wonderful it is. As the narratior or storyteller, I must give both sides, and at the same time be meaningful to myself.

No one said creating a legacy would be easy.

My Grandma is my biggest inspiration, I mean my Mom gave me the tools, but my Grandma has been my muse since birth. I’ve always looked up to her because she has always been that strong female doing big things. Of course my Mom is seconds behind her in the race but my Grandma gave my Mother the chance.

I think one of the main things she gave me was this unknown confidence in my voice, my mom always told me to do my best, yet it was my Grandma that demonstrated how to use her voice to live life. Singing Patsy Cline, The Beatles, or Credence Clearwater Revival at the karaoke bar for fun. Her expertise on the taste, her diction talking about how to work in the kitchen, her famous recipes were recited as sonnets.

Music is always in the air and the soundtrack to our lives starts when our Grandparents dance and use their voices.

Lately I’ve been picking up the ukulele, it’s such a small instrument. The peaceful sounds fill the room, I learn songs and play them to myself. It’s only a four string instrument and knowing how to play the guitar, the ukulele just naturally goes with my soul. Guitar chords are different than ukulele chords but there is still a similar sound. I am not a music teacher, I just enjoy playing this small guy, learning how the instruments are related, helps me appreciate the differences.

I can praise my Grandma all day, however I can not forget that my Mother was the one who paid for the earlier experiences. Buying me my first guitar, or renting a violin so that I could play music with the school. My Mom has worked so hard to fund my music experiments through out the years, she has kept me in this space to just play and enjoy the learning.

I feel that the biggest challenge of creating that legacy is having the goals be represented in the day-to-day work. This time we are in is so demanding, we want it and we want it now. I appreciate that drive and persistence, but the process is a process. Soak it up, but don’t expect for it to instantly appear in your hands because you want it fast.

What are the goals and how do they impact the present?

This City Is Haunted By Ghosts…

I have seen good and bad things happen in the past couple of weeks. There is this connection I have to the world and I forever want this place to know that it was loved. The experience of another episode of the mystery sitcom playing on the television that no one is watching. In the living room there was portrait of a family trying to get by.

I have to recognize that the care and time put into the day, being open and trusting, you gain these great memories that keep you strong during the rough patches. So beautiful that we can watch our past experiences via the force of the mind. The opportunity is not a guarantee, our time is limited. How do you deal with the reality of mortality, at the same time be invested with your individual journey on the planet.

I was watching a interview with the rapper Kevin Gates and we was speaking on the death of another rapper. He said that he didn’t die, he only changed form. It really speaks to this spiritual side of living and being connected to a greater system. We leave the earth correct, only to advance and experience another journey.

How do you want to be remembered as a ghost? The real challenge is remembering to be happy that you get to live today. The circumstance doesn’t allow you to know if the future is possible. The only true gaurntee is the current state of now.

Stay Kind Mac

A couple of weeks ago I went on a road trip up north towards Flagstaff for a basketball tournament, and I got to pick the music for the drive out of Phoenix. Such a honor to be handed the aux chord, I really couldn’t think of what to play. There has been a few albums I’ve been digging, but nothing came to mind, but there was this Mac Miller track called 2009 that had just come out on his new album Swimming.

I remember first hearing Mac Miller back when I was still in college, he had released some great mixtapes during that time. Smooth beats with rhymes about being this young minded invidual racing to a higher destination. And even the more commercial sinlges like Missed calls, that is a tune on the soundtrack of my life.

I select the new Mac Miller album Swimming for the ride, only because I wanted to see what Mac had to show. I am not the biggest fan, but I have been wondering about the dude. Earlier in the year, he was arrested. I know that the success can be overwhelming and you get yourself dealing with things you don’t need to be dealing with. Not making excuses for famous artist, I am just not trying to look past the fact that these inviduals are no different from anyone else.

Last Friday was a busy day for me and I wasn’t paying any attention to Instagram or Snapchat. It was one of those days when your racing the clock. I had not given my phone any love. I scrolled through my Instagram feed getting gas before I head home, I’m seeing pictures of Mac Miller. Not reading any of the captions, I finally see one with RIP 1996-2018.

I hear the mautrity and yet I hear Mac shinning in the lane he created when he was a teenager. The difficult thing to do in the music world is to stay original and true to what’s within, I think Mac was aware of that concept. I hear his voice and to me it’s organic because no one sounds like the dude.

Raspy melodies with clever wordplay and lines that inspire hope. Young energy turning into wisdom, that growth was the fruit…

Contained Choas

I am being pulled in every direction except the path I need to be on, how do I stay myself with all these changes influencing me? I must let the growth continue, even if that means start from the beginning and refigure it out. The road or narrative strives on, yet it is my inner wisdom that must adjust and get accustomed to this new day and time. I’ve been on this constant wave and it has taken me to some wonderful places, I just have to remember that no matter how much I gain or learn, I must use that knowledge and almost test it in a different lights. Put it to use and justify that it is something worth utlizing.

The world is this emotional experience and to be living and capable of being this Great individual requires you to learn from your own mistakes. Owning up to your own actions and capitalizing on those tough times rather than using them as barriers. All of this is hersay of course, but it is fun to pretend that you actually know anything that is certain.

The challenge is always yours for the taking, not acting on that opportunity is something you’ll never know to what that chance might have offered you. Not having regrets is safer than living with thousands. Fear can be the star of the show, or not have one line in the entire play…